I just don't know where I belong

meh.

I'm having trouble adjusting back to real life. like we all joked about it being weird going back to work and what not and not seeing anyone dressed as a storm-trooper and that's a tiny part of it. mostly for me, I think it's trying to get back into the way I relate to my friends here.

most of you know that I'm a pretty sarcastic (and hopefully funny) person. and yes, often times I will say things without thinking, but I never truly mean any harm by it. I would say that within the group of people I spent my days and nights with in San Diego that we were all pretty evenly matched in personality and while all of us are opinionated, none of us take that personally, or at least try not to.

here though, a difference in opinion is often seen as a personal attack. and while I had gotten pretty good at keeping most of my thoughts to myself, just those few days of freedom to really be myself have made it hard to slip back into that role. I like my friends here, don't get me wrong, but I'm just tired of always being the one who has to change. but I also know that it's not really reasonable for me to expect others to change to accomodate me. so I believe I'm firmly stuck at the junction of rock and hard place.

ugh. I fail at interpersonal relationships.

Lesa + Spencer = 4eva!

Happy Birthday shutyourface! I hope you had a wonderful day filled with all the bandomy things your heart desires. Which I'm pretty sure mostly means Spencer Smith. :D