I don't pretend to know why I try

[loveflyfree]

what's amazing is that I'm surprised. every. single. time. brushed aside, forgotten, nothing more than yesterday's trash. and the gaping hole inside that I stupidly stupidly thought was healed over is ripped open one more time.

the thing is. I never realize until it's too late that I'm kind of a douche and it's probably all my fault to begin with. and I never know if I'm supposed to talk about it or if it's just going to be swept back and do we continue like nothing is wrong or just. I don't know.

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and I'm going to go ahead and leave that up there. I wrote that about an hour ago. and then my mom called. I don't know how that woman does it, how she is always able to tell the exact moment that I need to hear her voice, but wow am I glad that this is her superpower. ♥

Comments

[ladybugg7.livejournal.com]

what's wrong sweetie? You sound really down. Is there anything that i can do?

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

there isn't, but I can't tell you how much it means that you asked. :) emo bullshit that sometimes takes a hold of me and won't let go. I'll tell you all about it on Monday if I don't see you before then.

I wish Star Trek was still playing. I kind of want to escape into a movie tomorrow. I guess I could see Transformers or something. anything out right now that you want to see? (I would say we could watch The Proposal again, but I think I'm in the kind of mood where romantic comedies just highlight all the ways in which my life sucks.)

[rivers-bend.livejournal.com]

♥

I'm glad your mom has that superpower.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

me too man. it's amazing how a good talk with her and then a full night of sleep can make me feel like a new person. \o/

[(Anonymous)]

of course. you know that im always there. get some rest maybe things will be better in the morning.
well... hmm UP sounds good,my sisters keeper.
I'll talk to you in the morning

[ladybugg7.livejournal.com]

kay not sure why, but that last comment is from moi. and im not sure if it will be morning, but tomorrow for sure

[monkiedude.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥ ♥.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thanks sweetness. things feel much better in the light of day. sometimes I'm just a big emotional mess you know? oh well. LOOK AT HOW HAPPY PINE IS IN YOUR ICON. ♥

[sweill.livejournal.com]

Your mom, too, hmm? Good.
:::hugs:::

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

it's almost a little scary, but I'm so glad she does that.

**hugs** thanks bb!

[ficangel.livejournal.com]

*hugs on you*

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thanks honey. sometimes I just let everything pile up and something small sets me off and then it's just. not good.

[ficangel.livejournal.com]

Sometimes family is your lifeline. Sometimes, you wish that you were hatched from an egg. It's a thing.

[glockgal.livejournal.com]

BB, noooooooo. I hope it gets better, I hope you don't have to put up with other people's stupid bs because you are WAY too good for them, my god you are. Yay for mummy, I'm so glad you have someone to talk to. <3 <3 <3

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

I swear to god if I ever win the lottery - FANGIRL ENCLAVE. (and the occasional fanboy - *waves at Tom*)

thank you bb. I was mostly just having a massive over-reacting fit. and was too exhausted to be able to talk myself down. so yay Mom! she's the best.

in other news, CHRIS PINE'S FACE. ♥

[dramedy.livejournal.com]

Mom's are amazing like that. they just seem to be able to diffuse things, and know when and how and everything.

<3! I hope you feel better soon. <3!

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thanks bb. I'll be fine, I'm just sometimes a total lunatic. *hugs*

[livehead16.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

yay for moms with superpowers.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

moms can be pretty awesome sometimes.

hey are those dorks in your icon ever going to tour out here? besides random fair appearances that I can't get to anyway? *stomps foot* :)