good times never seem so good

[loveflyfree]

- I can't believe tomorrow is November. that's just crazycakes.

- I didn't do anything for Halloween, which is a first time in a long time. I just. couldn't get a costume together; nothing looked good/felt right, etc. it's my favorite holiday of the year and I just couldn't get myself to care.

- I haven't been posting much lately. mostly because I've been feeling... um. crazy? oh that's not a good word. unbalanced maybe. I don't know. I just go back and forth so much between super happy and crushingly depressed and there's not a whole lot of in between and it makes it hard to sort shit out in my head. I mean I guess I'm mostly okay. it's just sometimes I can't. I just can't.

- on the plus side I've dropped about 5 pounds since Wincon. this is mostly due to my new diet which has one step. no more god damn fast food. jesus. so yeah. that's going well so far. also I'm reintroducing those things called vegetables. I'm sure my body doesn't know what to do. *rolls eyes*

- further good stuff: wincon 2010 is shaping up to be made of absolute awesome. I found Doom for $5 at Walmart. my latest order from BPAL is bringing me absolute joy (oh god Juke Joint - A bawdy, gleefully wicked and unruly scent: Kentucky Bourbon, sugar and a sprig of mint and The Coil - Ozone, eucalyptus and mint with purple orchid, passionflower, white ginger, and purple lotus are amaaaaaazing.) I went shopping today and found a 2010 Star Trek (reboot) calander. I was beginning to think they didn't exist. silverlining_99 is indulging my whims and working on fic with a ridiculous Jim and bemused Chapel (plus she suggested Nicki Aycox as Chapel and I like the idea so much I naturally had to make an icon. *g*) I've watched the clip of Puck singing "Sweet Caroline" a ridiculous number of times. I've been reading some amazing Kirk/McCoy fic and Glee fic.

- so you know. I guess the good outweighs the bad. I just need to get my brain to remember that more often.

- eta: also omg this post at Cute Overload. ♥ ♥ ♥

- AND (I totally can't believe I forgot this part) the following picture by aqueousserenade has made me laugh out loud every time I've looked at it. because it's oh so very true. (via kirkspock)





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[silverlining-99.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry your mood is bouncing around. I know the feeling well, and it can be...well, yeah. Tough. *hugs*

I will have another chunk of Kirk/Chapel for you soon! Tonight, at some point.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thanks honey. it's just. it's harder than just being overall depressed, because at least with that I can take steps towards getting better. but feeling like shit one day and awesome the next is just. exhausting.

but eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Kirk/Chapel ♥♥♥