so then I took my turn

[loveflyfree]

right. so you grow up and you're never the pretty girl, you're never the one that gets looked at twice or thought about in any way at all except maybe in that 'oh she's just a friend' way. and before you know it, before you're even in high school you already know that you're nothing special. and so you take all that in and it becomes a part of you and it's not like you wanted it to happen. you just weren't paying attention and by then it was too late. it's too late, right? wrong. for about the past month I've been putting a lot of effort into how I look. doing my make up, dressing a little different, wearing earrings and styling my hair. not because I think these things make me somehow more worthy, but because these things make me look at myself and say 'yes.' because it's like I've found the girl that has been hidden away all this time.

this picture is kind of tragic because it was taken at work in the Bathroom of Despair (or the Silent Hill bathroom... it's unnaturally lit in there and I would not be surprised to see one of those nurse-creature things twitching in the corner) but I wore my kickass slate blue boots and a new sweater dress and my nickname for myself all day was 'sex bomb.'

basically what I'm saying is that today felt like motherfucking victory.

Comments

[tenaciousmetoo.livejournal.com]

*applauds*

The lighting in that bathroom looks like an Instagram effect -- kinda cool.

And you, my dear, look STUNNING.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thank you! ♥

[monkiedude.livejournal.com]

Girl, you are working those boots. Get it!!!

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

those boots fill my soul with glee.

also I would love to 'get it' however everyone on my list who is allowed to do that seems to be a british actor so I think I may be living in really the wrong place. ;p

[affectingly.livejournal.com]

Hot damn, Reg. I COULD NEVER PULL OFF A DRESS LIKE THAT, ONE, SO I AM JEALOUS. AND TWO, YOU ARE GORGEOUS.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

AMBER. YOU ARE MAKING ME BLUSH. that dress was such a find I could not even believe. it. it's the absolute perfect length. and seriously every time I took a step and flashed some leg I was just like 'why is there no one here to appreciate how hot I am!' ahahah.

[sharpeslass.livejournal.com]

Adorable! And I tell you, there is nothing like a pair of kickass boots to make you feel like a strong confident woman. (you are right about the bathroom. Scary!!)

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

the bathroom is terrifying.

but yes. boots. they make everything better.

[sharpeslass.livejournal.com]

They so do. Get some lace up high heeled ankle boots next. Mine look like ice skates with an open toe and I've gotten compliments from people while just loading groceries into the car. FROM MEN who don't normally even notice shoes. Do it, girlfriend. Now that you know you can rock it, there is no end. Your only regret will be that you didn't have the confidence when you were younger (and most of us have that regret, except for the washed up cheerleader who did and doesn't anymore). *pinches your hot ass*

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

oh my god I am convinced that half of the men in my office have a shoe fetish because I got SO MANY compliments on those boots. yes. more boots is definitely the answer.

[antheia.livejournal.com]

Love it!

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thank you bb! ♥

[rivers-bend.livejournal.com]

you look SUPER GREAT!

Isn't it amazing the difference doing that stuff makes in how you feel? not because you are prettier or more awesome when you do it but because you're saying out loud and proud, I AM WORTH SPENDING TIME ON. and pretty soon you start to FEEL worth spending time on, which is awesome :D

HELLO, SEX BOMB!

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

that's exactly it. I don't feel better because I'm suddenly pretty, I feel pretty because I feel good enough to say 'HEY WORLD YOU MISSED THIS AWESOME CHICK OVER HERE. COME CHECK ME OUT.' (only please don't be weird and creepy about it.)

SEX BOMB! ♥

[thecowboycliche.livejournal.com]

Good job, girl.

And yes, it feels like it's too late, but it's not. I think people tend to blossom after they get out of the teenage/early adult years.

[loveflyfree.livejournal.com]

thank you! and yes. that is so true.